After the film
I was 18 the first time I went to bed with a man. I had known since I was 10 that, while all my friends talked about girls and what they wanted to do with them, it was male bodies that fascinated me, the changing room in the gym at school was like looking in a toyshop window, even though I didn’t really know what I wanted to do with those naked bodies and cocks. Then I came across a book that had realistic sex scenes, I realised that what I wanted to be was the woman. The only thing was I didn’t have the faintest idea how I was supposed to find a man who would want to do all the things I fantasised about. In fact, I wasn’t really sure that there were men out there who would want to stick their cocks in my mouth or up my bum, so I was wanking myself silly 2 or 3 times a day.
Anyway on THE DAY, during the summer holidays, I had gone to a small local cinema. After maybe half an hour I went into the loo. As usual, the second I had my cock out I was playing with myself. I heard somebody come in. I was surprised when the man stood at the stall right next to me. After a few seconds I realised that he was playing with himself as well. He half turned towards me so I could get a good look at his cock. Looking back, it was nothing spectacular, maybe 6”, circumcised, slender, at the time; however, it was the most beautiful thing I’d ever seen. He took hold of my cock, stroking me gently. As I began playing with him, I was really turned on. He said he lived about 5 minutes away and did I want to go back with him for some fun. I remember standing there thinking “God, do I ever!” On the way to his flat, he asked me what I liked. I told him I’d never done anything before, but I thought I wanted to be the girl.
At his flat, he led me into the bedroom, sat me on the bed and took off my plimsolls and socks and told me to stand up. He slid off my T shirt and began running his hands over my chest and back, which felt fantastic. He eased my shorts down so that I could step out of them, leant forward to kiss me as his hand slid inside my pants, cupping my cock and balls, squeezing and stroking them, then my pants were round my ankles. He told me to lie on the bed and began to undress. I was fascinated at the sight of his naked body, he was in his late 20s, about 6 foot, slim but muscular, hairy chest, arms and legs with a thick bush of pubic hair and that lovely cock. I felt very excited and slightly scared at the thought of what was going to happen. He got on the bed and began kissing me as his hands ran over my body. He kissed and licked his way down my body while he stroked my cock, then his tongue was on my balls, licking at them, then up and down the stem of my cock around the knob and took me in his mouth, working up and down the full length. I’d never felt anything like this, I knew it wouldn’t take me long to cum, but then as I got close he stopped and told me to turn over and pull my knees up.
He began nibbling at the cheeks of my bum and eased my legs apart. I was really surprised when I felt his tongue licking at my hole and working itself into me. This had me calling out from the sheer pleasure of it. He stopped rimming me and a finger took the place of his tongue and he gradually worked the whole length into me and began thrusting it in and out of me. It hurt a bit, but before I realised what was happening my hips were thrusting in time with him. He leant forward and whispered in my ear “Do you want me to fuck you?” All I could reply was “Oh, yes please.” He told me it would hurt the first couple of times. I didn’t care. If he’d told me he was going to stick a tree trunk up me, I’d have been saying “Fuck me, fuck me.”
He lay on his back, put KY on his cock and told me to straddle his hips and to lower myself onto him when I was ready. It hurt quite a bit as I worked the first couple of inches into me, but I managed to get his whole length inside me. I rested for a second and then started to move. It hurt but now I knew this was what I wanted. The pain began to ease and I got to the point where I could move so that only the tip was still inside me then back down his whole cock. He let me carry on for 5 minutes and then said he wanted me on my back. He managed to move me without pulling out of me, wrapped my legs around his waist and started to fuck me, holding me down by my wrists and kissing me. I loved the feel of his body pressing down on me as his cock took me now that he was in control; he carried on for maybe another 10 minutes, gradually speeding up his thrusts till he told me he was getting close. I was really turned on now, my hips thrusting up to meet him as he buried his whole length in me. It was as if all I was aware of was his rock hard cock forcing its way in to me. Then he was there, his thrusts becoming frantic, till with one deep push I knew he was shooting his load right inside me. It had been even better than I’d dreamt it would be, though I felt a bit sad as his cock began to go soft inside me